Learning

When I was growing up, my mother always told me that I could do anything I wanted if I tried hard enough.  I took that very literally.  I grew up quite a little perfectionist, always thinking 10 steps ahead, and always feeling that the only reason not to be good at something was lack of effort and laziness on my part.

Now I’m older.  Not a lot, but some, and I still have the problem of wanting to “do it all”.  I want to run a marathon, I want to ride in the LOTOJA bike race, I want to make quilts, knit, buy a home, go back to school, read a book a week, stay up on new music and media, travel the world, learn to cook, keep a clean house, keep a journal, and be a good person.  (Among other things…) 

Focusing and relaxing.  Both things that I need to work on personally and professionally.  I’m always getting worked up and overwhelmed by life and job stress.  What I need to do is focus all that negative energy on changing what can be changed instead of wasting all my time worrying.  Pick a few things, not 15.  I’m going to do LOTOJA this year, but a marathon will have to wait.  More immediately, I am going to do this stack of files, and that other stack will just have to wait when I can focus and be efficient when working on them.

It’s a lesson I’m trying to learn, but you really can do it all – you just can’t do it all at once. 

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White Out!

We’ve had absolutely crazy weather today!  Winds so strong that the news people keep getting knocked back and then snow, which in combination leave you with no visibility.  It’s really very beautiful.  I’ve noticed, however, that in nature beauty is so often accompanied by danger or death.  Deadly but exotic plant ans animals…the beauty of a storm that at the same time rips through towns and kills sailors…the peace and majesty of the same mountains that kills dozens every year. 

Opposition in all things.

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Knowing Your Destination

Directions of “take this exit then go right – then left” are NOT good directions to take if you are directionally challenged like myself.  Also, forgetting your cell phone at home when you might get lost.  This is also a bad thing.  Don’t do it.

Today’s reccomendation is to know the exact address of your destination so when you stop for direction you don’t have to tell them you’re stupid as well as lost.

Also – DEATH CAB for CUTIE!  A new album in May.  Check out their older stuff.  I especially like the songs Photobooth & Title & Registration, but you really can’t go wrong with them.  If you’re in for something else indie, try WILCO. 

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Want to feel nostalgic? Go back to school.

So perhaps working 40 hours a week, trying to get your real estate license for work, and taking to classes each with a lab was not the best idea.  I mean, come on.  It’s really cutting into my reading and relaxation time, not to mention eating my gas.  When you’re an adult doing night classes, you get the pleasure of driving to multiple campuses. 

It really makes me feel old and not to mention kind of dumb when I’m sitting in these introductory classes with these trendy, skater kids just out of high school – in some cases, the class is being held AT a high school…  Gah.  What was I thinking?  Easpecially since I am definately not trendy anymore.  I come in my “business casual” wear from work for goodness sake.  Gone are the days when I would wear clothing laden with hip sayings, logos, or brand names.  Gone are the days when I could wear 75 cent Goodwill tees, jeans from a roomate, and flip flops regardless of the weather because they were comfortable. I can say I never wore ill fitting clothing.  I always went for comfort…(but “style” and image came in a close second…)

And I’m only 24.  Sometimes I think I should post something on the discussion board that says “Hey!  Quit making me feel old with your sleepy, devil-may-care attitudes and your Uggs and Juicy jeans and clothes you bought at Amy Surplus because it’s the new fashion!” 

And then I just feel even older.  Where’s my rocking chair and shotgun so I can go harass the neighbor kids on my front porch?!  Give me my cane!  Give me my walker!

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